I just came home from the movie, Hot Tub Time Machine. The premise is that these guys get into a time machine (hot tub) and go back to 1986. They can change the future by their actions or keep it the same. I thought it was a pretty good movie, although predictable.
It got me thinking though. If you could go back 5, 10, 15, or more years, would you change anything? It is a bit unnerving to think about what my life would be like now if I hadn’t broken up with an ex, chose a different path for school, or made decisions that would make it so I never met my husband. I used to think about these things more before I had kids. Now, it just seems wrong to think about how my life would be if I had chosen to do this-or-that.
But, I do wonder. Mike and I are coming up on 10 years of knowing each other. If I chose 10+ years ago not to pursue a supervisor position, I may not have gone into his place of employment to make copies of my application. We may not have started talking. We may have never became friends and started to hang out. I may have never met him. I might be with my ex or some other person. Heck, I might still be single. It is just crazy to think about.
That said, I do the “if I knew then, what I know now” song and dance at times. But, when it comes down to it, I would make the same choices. I wouldn’t change anything because, despite things that upset me now, I love my life and my family. I love my children more than anything. The saying is true in the reverse… if I knew then (that I would be as blessed as I am NOW), I certainly would be making decisions to ensure the past is repeated to this very day.
I ask for no do-overs in my life. I take each day for what it is… good or bad. Today is my happiness and I will claim it. It is mine!