I am scared.
I am scared about labor. I have no idea what to expect and it worries me. I am scared Mike won’t be a good support person since this will be his first vag labor too. I am scared about having another baby in the house. I am scared I won’t have enough love to share with her because I can’t imagine having as much love for another baby as I do for Johnny. I am scared about not being ready for her. I am scared about breastfeeding. I am scared about leaving Johnny while I am in the hospital (this is HUGE for me). I am scared I am going to make a decision during labor that will lead to a cesarean… I am scared I will have to have a cesarean.
Right now I am just nervous. My back is killing me, the contractions are getting stronger, there is a very intense pressure on my cervix and sharp pains, (tmi alert) I have had diarrhea all day and just have an overall feeling of uneasiness. I know my body is getting ready. It isn’t making me feel all happy go lucky right now.
I am scared.
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