There has been a lot going on and at the same time, just been the same ol’ thing.
Tayler is in the process of trying to have a relationship with her mom again… maybe. I don’t know. All I do know is that it hurts me terribly for reasons I can’t even describe. I hate to see her hurt again and unfortunately, that will happen as it always does. I can only hope for the best and hope that she will make a decision that is best for her. I don’t think her mom will ever be what she wants her to be. Pretty sad.
Mas and Kenzie really aren’t wanting to spend much time with their mom either. This past weekend, Mike asked Kenzie if she wanted to go over there and she said no, it wasn’t her mom’s weekend. True, but she could have possibly went if she wanted to. This happened during the school year last year too because they had friends they wanted to play with here. I am fine with that… they can stay home whenever they want as long as there are times that Mike and I can spend together. We have been seriously lacking in that and it is affecting our relationship.
My birthday sucked. There isn’t much more to say about it other than it was probably the worst day I have had in a very, very long time. I am trying to move past it.
Tonight is schedule pickup for Tayler for HIGH SCHOOL! She is excited and nervous. I hope she is listening when I tell her that most (if not all) people are nervous going into high school. She will be fine. She is a smart kid and is starting to get a clue about what people want and expect from her. I just want her to be herself so I hope she doesn’t try to change to please anyone.
The baby seems to be doing great. The little stinker moves constantly. I rarely get more than 5 hours sleep a night and that is really a stretch most nights. Between Mike snoring, the dogs wanting to go out, the baby moving and being just plain uncomfortable, it gets rough sometimes.
I am trying to sell things on CL to get some money for things we want/need for the baby. This pregnancy is going by so fast that I am starting to realize that the baby will be here before I know it and I want to be prepared. I still have some cloth diapers to get but that is it unless it is a girl. Lord help me if this is a girl… I still think it is btw.
Well, I am off to lay on the sofa. Too many nights of no sleep are getting to me. I see a counselor tomorrow night for the first time so I hope to get more rest tonight so I am not a complete wreck going in there!