Tonight, I had the most amazing experience at church. I can honestly say that I have never felt the way I did this evening. I have never been moved to tears and felt the presence of our Lord come over me in such a way. I have never felt such peace.
Once a month, my church has a gathering called Inspire. I have spoken of this before as I have been every month since it started. These gatherings are the highlight of my month and I look forward to the day in which I will meet with friends for a night of faith, fellowship, and love. Tonight, we were talked to about Lent and sang. We discussed how Jesus died for our sins, He died so that we may live eternally with Him. We can not have a relationship with God if we turn away from Him or if we sin.
The priest showed scenes from The Passion of the Christ. While they were sad and upsetting, it was a dose of reality as well. We were not meant to leave depressed, but happy that our Lord was willing to die for our sins. We can’t hold onto sins and struggles. We need to free those from ourselves so that we can live fully with Christ. Any sin or struggle weighing us down was keeping us from having a relationship with Christ. So, what are we to do?
The priest had an amazing way for us to free ourselves from the sins and struggles that weighed upon us. Each person was given a small piece of paper. On that paper, you were to write what sin(s) or struggle(s) you are dealing with that is keeping you from having a full relationship with Christ. When you were finished, you were invited to come to the front and nail your sins to a cross that was prepared of wood, standing over 6 feet tall I imagine. Each person in church, both young and old, walked up to the cross and nailed their sins to the cross… the same way Christ was nailed to the cross for our sins. We were encouraged to pray and feel the weight being lifted off of us and to feel God’s love for us all.
When you finished with nailing your sin to the cross, you were given a large nail. It is about 6 inches long and immediately brought to my mind the nails that must have been used on our Lord. Hanging from the cross is the following writing:
A time to ponder your nail, your sin, your cross…
As I went back to my seat, I was overcome with emotion. Holding that nail, I broke down into tears. The tears were for the sins and struggles I wrote, the love I felt, His grace upon me and my friends, and my sorrow for Jesus choosing to die for me. Am I worthy of His love? I must be worthy of His love. He died for me, for my sins, and so that I may live. He gave me life because of the love he has for me. I choose to live that life with Him in my heart, in my mind, and in my actions. I am worthy and I will prove it. Just wait.