I have had some trouble with illness lately. I haven’t shared much here but I think it is time to tell you all why my blog posts have been sucking it up so much. I started with a bad, bad case of eczema on my finger. It started with small blisters on the tip of my finger and I let it go. I tend to do that when I get sick… just let it go and hope it goes away. Well, that didn’t. It became infected. The final straw was when it started fissuring. I headed to the Urgent Care where I was given antibiotics for my finger and Strep Throat plus a steroidal cream.
My finger cleared up quickly and the Strep Throat was feeling better too. I finished my antibiotics and was feeling good. I was completely sick-free for about a week and then I started to feel bad again. On Friday, my throat started hurting again. I knew immediately that it was bad. I had never had Strep Throat before this past month, like ever in my 33 years. Well, I knew right away that it was going to be Strep again when I felt the pain in my throat among other symptoms. Fan-freakin-tastic! I tried to not go to the doctor. Without insurance it is really expensive. I can’t even tell you how much it sucks to not have insurance when you really are sick. I tried though. I tried to just let it go and see if my body could fight it.
No dice though. I could not sleep last night. I was up consistently until 4:30am when I decided that the lack of swallowing was becoming an issue. I needed to stop being stubborn and take care of myself despite the cost. I was literally unable to swallow and felt the worst I have ever felt. Ever. I ended up going to the ER at 5am. Thankfully, they got me in quickly. I was in and out within about an hour. I had to get the Strep swab twice (not fun) and ended up testing positive. I am on another 10 day course of antibiotics. I also was given some liquid lidocaine for the pain but I can’t figure out how to gargle so I am having some problems with it.
I am hoping I will feel better soon. I have lots to say and have been lacking in my posts lately so I apologize. It is hard to be mom, student, church member, blogger, etc. when I feel so bad. Any other moms out there find that when they are sick, they are still expected to go on like nothing happened? I really feel there is a double standard with this. If the kids or my husband get sick, everyone caters to them. Yet, when I get sick, I am supposed to be doing everything I always do. I’m not alone here, right?
I submitted this post for Bitch and Moan Monday at In Through The Out Door. Do you have anything you want to complain about? Head over and link up! By the way, I didn’t write this post for the MEME but it sure fits, don’t you think?
Kara says
I’m so sorry Stef!! I was out of work for a week, sick as a dog, and it was just horrible. Hence, my reason for lack of posting, too.
I’m so glad you went to the doc, and got what was needed!! I hope it’s all gone by now.
xoxo
amber says
Mamas just aren’t allowed to get sick. It sucks! I hope you feel better soon!
Em Static says
That sounds just awful! I’m like you. A limb would have to spontaneously fall off my body before I take myself to a doctor. I’ve been incredibly lucky so far, but…
I feel kind of guilty that as a kid I didn’t let my mom just be sick and rest. I didn’t know how badly one could crave a little alone time as an adult, especially when said adult feels crappy. Hope you feel better soon!
WCatDD says
If you are getting sick, then your body is saying “STOP! I NEED TO REST! Something’s wrong!” Show your husband where the food lives, close the door, and take the time to get better. If you keep pushing yourself while you are trying to heal, then you won’t be able to fully get better, practically ensuring that you’ll get sick again.
P.S. Don’t forget to keep your praying up too. 🙂
Judy B. says
Stefany, So sorry to hear you are feeling so bad. Yes, there are different standards here. As moms/wives we are the caretakers and caregivers and often neglect ourselves. I just blogged a bit on this yesterday at my site: http://Beachbird2.blogspot.com. We have to include ourselves in the caretaking or else we are no good to anyone. Sometimes it would be nice to have our mommy around again! It is because we are so important to others that they continue to need us during our downtime. Take the time off and care for yourself! Feel better. Sending you some virtual Chicken Soup.
Kisha Floren says
Oh, honey, you are SO not alone….I totally understand where you’re coming from, about the double standards and the lack of health insurance. We were without for a couple of years, and now we have a self purchased plan that covers some, but still leaves a lot to be desired. You might consider looking into it-it definitely is an added monthly expense but I was surprised at how affordable it can be and it is sure cheaper than an ER visit! Also, lots of hospitals will write off a portion to all of the cost of a visit when you are uninsured-please look into that! And even more importantly–feel better soon! xoxo
Charissa says
Hope you feel better soon!! There is such a double standard. My hubby is usually pretty good to help when I am sick, but I can only be sick for a few days…
For your sore throat, have you tried honey? I had strep a couple of weeks ago and it helped.