Well, after waiting a day and a half to get the order, the doc’s office had nothing to pick from for an appointment. I am stuck going on Tuesday at 7:10am. Mike is going to go into work late so that I don’t have to wake all the kids up and bring them with me (can you say nightmare?). The only problem with him going in late is that he won’t make it to the appointment that I have with my OB later that day. I had wanted him to go and listen to whatever is said, but he won’t likely be home on time now. Oh well.
So, anyone have any advice for me on this…
After sitting down last night with my therapist (who by the way, really made me angry), I realize just how bad my worrying is. I worry about so much… anxiety has always been an issue but obviously those things are taking over my head. I don’t know how to stop. I want to. I don’t want to be worried about everything, all the time. I want to just let go and let be. I am just unsure how.
I strive to be like my friend Steph. She seems so put together, so easygoing, so cool-headed. That is my goal. I just don’t know how to get there.
Oh, and in case you are wondering, my therapist made me angry because she told me I should trust in my OB’s decisions unconditionally. I tried to explain to her that the baby is fine, that I am fine, and that a decision my OB makes may be based on what is best for HIM. She doesn’t get it though. She said that he knows best and I don’t have any business disagreeing with him. Ummm, let me tell you… I will NOT put my baby or myself in danger. As I see it though, until there is reason to worry about her or me, why stress about her upcoming birth. She is safe right now and obviously isn’t ready to come on her own or she would be here. blah. I just hate when people act all high and mighty because they are “professionals”.
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