This is in response to being up since 4am. I normally am not this crabby about nursing but today, I have had lots of time to think.
Loves:
Spending time with Joley throughout the day.
Knowing that I am giving what she needs to survive.
Having time every few hours to sit and rest.
Watching her grow and knowing it is because of me.
Knowing how good it is for her.
ETA: Not havng to get out of bed to feed her.
That look she gives me while she eats.
Not loves: (I don’t hate anything)
Being the only one who can feed her… whenever that may be.
The pain… I know this will pass soon enough but right now, it sucks.
Having to worry about my breasts.
Not getting a break from being a mommy…ever. Mike helps but it really feels like all I do is nurse her and sleep. I am not even eating the way I should.
So, yeah. I am crabby. I don’t do well with no sleep. I am guessing she is going through a growth spurt because she wants to eat… again. I just fed her an hour ago. This is really not a good time for a growth spurt. My boobs hurt so bad right now from the switch off the shield. I could really badly use a nap like right now. Unfortunately, Johnny got up an hour earlier than normal so I didn’t even get to rest as long as I wanted.
Wish me luck today. I am exhausted, crabby and just ugh.
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