I just wanted to give you all a quick update as promised. Last week I went for my 6 week follow-up (a bit early but my insurance demanded it). We talked about my blood pressure, which was good at the time. I am to keep an eye on it and call if there are any problems. We talked about birth control, of which I need none thanks to the tubal that my doc promised me was all good. We talked about the pain I still feel thanks to the healing abs and hernia repair. He commended me on my weight loss (down 26 pounds since Jemma was born… only gained 3 during pregnancy… I’m hoping to lose more, perhaps with the help of the Sensa Weight Loss System. Be sure to watch for my review!). He praised me on breastfeeding. Finally, we talked about the new pain I am feeling… and the cysts that are causing it.
I have several ovarian cysts that were seen during my surgery. My doc was going to take a look at them at the follow-up appointment but it was necessary by the time I got there. I had a strong feeling that one had ruptured. I was right. The ultrasound showed that one on my left ovary did indeed rupture. We talked about what to do about them and it was determined that there is nothing to do right now. I can’t take oral hormones that could control their development because of breastfeeding. I can’t have them removed because I no longer have health insurance. He wants to discuss a possible hysterectomy in the future. eek.
Yeah, I am so not ready to even think about that. Removing my uterus just seems so… I don’t know… final. I am not saying final as in no more kids. It just seems the end of my womanhood. I mean no offense to anyone so please don’t take it that way. It just feels to me that my uterus is the one thing that I have that creates the woman in me… it determines hormone levels and carried my babies. If that is gone, a huge part of what makes me a woman is gone (in my mind). Besides, I am in no way ready to go through an early menopause.
The truth is that I just want to feel okay. I am tired of feeling awful. I am tired of being in pain. Besides the cyst that ruptured on the left side, I had another rupture on the right side. That one was much worse and had me in the fetal position in bed. Hopefully the pain subsides with these and I can start to feel normal again… whatever that means.
Nicolle B. says
I’m so sorry Stefany. I hope you feel better soon! Can you get the free state insurance?
Shell says
I struggled for many years with ovarian cysts and endometriosis. I had many different surgeries thru the years and then finally a hysterectomy at 35. I am now 53 and have never regretted the decision. It was wonderful not having a period again. Currently I have many friends going thru pretty serious menopause issues. I am very happy I am not having any of those!
Best wishes for you
Stefany says
That is really good to know Shell. I worry about the hormone changes but after my 3rd cyst ruptured this week, I am wondering how much more I can take. 🙁
Robyn says
{{{hugs}}} so sorry you are still struggling with so much. Are there any groups that can help with cost of surgery for those without insurance??
Stefany says
No Robyn. 🙁