First, for the good news… Joley has gained 7 ounces in the past week! She now weighs 8lbs 130z! Yay! Nursing is going well for her. I want to wean from the shield but the pedi is not concerned about it and told me to not stress since she is gaining so well. I am going to work on it though simply because it is a pain.
Oh, and the family guilt. My mom emailed me basically telling me how I was wrong and making me feel like a bad person because of Christmas. I told her to call me when dinner was done and she didn’t… I fell asleep. I apparently am the bad guy though because I didn’t come up there on my own. I was sleeping because I am tired and worn out. Joley was a week old. My mom told me I am making too much of a job out of nursing and it is supposed to be part of the day. That is all fine and dandy but I am still trying to get used to having a newborn again and being new to nursing, that just adds to the confusion. I am sorry that Christmas didn’t work out the way it has in the past but I am honestly hurt that more consideration wasn’t given to me. I don’t want to cry about it anymore but I don’t see me being “forgiven” anytime soon. I am just so upset that I am being made to feel guilty about this… like being told I am not wanting to be closer to my family and that my sister hasn’t held the baby yet (she was sick when she was born). The whole thing sucks.
That is it for now. I am upset… again… about the whole damn situation.
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