My appt went fine. My bp was great, baby’s heartbeat was 144, still measuring big, pee was fine. I gained more weight which the doc jokingly (haha, right?) said was going to the baby. I am not dilating anymore than I was last week. I was seriously about to cry. I have a gazillion contractions a day. Some are over 60 seconds long and hurt like a beast. Some are nothing and don’t bug me at all other than being annoying. The pressure is intense… like bad. It is so discouraging to have all these and still very little dilation.
It doesn’t help that I feel completely abandoned by my family. Mike and Tayler don’t do shit to help around here unless they are forced to. Tayler came home yesterday claiming to not feel good yet proceeded to hang out on the computer all night around all the kids. Fabulous. So, if any one of them gets sick, who do you think takes care of it? Me. Then who will get sick? Me. Ridiculous. I told Mike that she needs to go down to her room if she wasn’t feeling well and not infect the whole damn family but he lets her do whatever the hell she wants. He doesn’t even make her do her chores, does them himself and them bitches at me about it. I am just fed up.
I am having second thoughts about the vbac simply because of this family. How freaking unfair is that? I am feeling I should give up something that is important to me because I am not getting the love and support I need from the people in my home. That is just effed up.
PLEASE say some prayers, think good thoughts, or do whatever it is you do. I am certain my doc is going to give me some issues about going past 39 weeks with the baby’s supposed weight. I need to go into labor this week or I think the c/s will end up being my answer… for my sake, the baby’s sake and the lives of my rude, inconsiderate family. I am just discouraged that with barely any change so far, that it isn’t going to happen.
BTW, I am 38 weeks today. Johnny was born at 37w6d. I have officially made it further in my pregnancy than I did with him. Little consolation though considering I was further dilated with him at this point. 🙁
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