I am overly emotional but whatever. I am tired of cooking dinner and at least one person not being happy with it. I am tired of taking care of everyone else only to not be able to take care of myself. By the time the evening comes, I am exhausted and doing the things I enjoy (like sewing) don’t happen. I am tired of trying to juggle things to pay the bills. So, I look at jobs. I have two choices… I can work weekends which I HATED or I can work evening and basically miss putting my baby to bed every night and spending time with the family. That may not even work anyways because Mike will likely not be off early enough for me to leave some days. Besides, if I work until 11pm every night, I will be exhausted during the day and not wanting to get up with the kids in the morning and not enjoy the little time I have with Johnny.
I wish there was something I could do from home, but I have come up empty-handed on that search. I can’t find anything legit that will make any type of good income. I hate to ask Mike to get a second job because I know how hard he works during the day. At the same time, we are in this position because of his kids living here and their mother not supporting them. Why should I be the one having to give up time with my kiddo because of that?
So, basically, I am just worn out, exhausted, and feeling under-appreciated. Add that to my feeling crappy and you don’t have a very happy mom.
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