I cried myself to sleep last night. I am so sad about the death of Ryan Hawn. I am sad for his parents. I am sad for his sister. My kids are close in age to both of the Hawn children, which I think just hits closer to home than I would like to feel. In addition, the close proximity of where the Hawns live in relationship to me just makes it so “close”.
I have been told I am too emotional; that I get too upset by other people’s lives. This had me thinking while I was up with Joley last night. Am I too emotional? Do I care too much?
As a nurse, I kinda laughed it off. I mean, come on, my job is to heal, to save and to take care of people. How can I care too much? It is my job to care. If I didn’t care, would I be a good nurse? I don’t think so. Not for a minute. There are plenty of bad nurses out there and I, personally, believe that happens when you start not to care or when you simply just grow detached from your goals as a nurse to heal and treat.
I admit that I became very close to some of my patients/residents while nursing. Does that make me a weak person or a good nurse… or both? I wanted to share a part of my nursing essay with you.
After completing the Master’s Program, my goal is to work with women and children. I would like to help and encourage women to choose both safer and healthier birth options and to educate women on breastfeeding while helping them to do so successfully. I would also like to work with women from various socioeconomic environments to ensure all women and infants get proper prenatal and postnatal care.
With my “overly emotional” personality, is this a bad goal for me? I like to think it is not… that my goals will bring me closer to people; people I can help, people I can heal, people I can save. I am not naive, I know that I won’t be able to save everyone. I have been down that sad, lonely road before in my career when someone I have taken care of is not able to be saved. But, that one person that you do save or heal, that person makes all the pain and sadness worth while.
So, I will not change. I will not become less emotional. My compassion for others is what makes me a good woman, mommy, wife, daughter, sister, and friend. I am a good nurse… I will be a good Midwife. I can’t care too much; I will just care and take care.