I have shed so many tears over the past few days regarding Mike’s kids. I have decided that I may be over emotionally involved. They aren’t my kids… they never will be. I will never be a mom to them because they are always going to think of their mom as supermom where I am the one that has to punish them, make them do homework, give them chores, etc. Yeah, I am also the one that makes their meals, buys their medicine, does their laundry, talks to them about things and takes care of them. All that doesn’t matter though.
I really think I need to take a step back. I can’t continue to be hurt by the kids. Tayler hurt me very bad in the past and I was doing a fine job of forgetting about it. I don’t want it to happen again, but in a way it is. I can’t keep crying about this when there is nothing I can do to change things. I need to give myself a break. I can’t be someone to them that they don’t want. They don’t want me to be a mom to them. They already have one of those… despite how bad she is at being one.
So, what do I do? I have to be a mother while they are here. I can’t live in my own house and not take care of them. At the same time, I can’t continue the way it is. I don’t know what to do, but for my own mental well-being, something has to change.
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